wencheng: shuks, you are graduating soon! if you graduate from uni single, the chances of getting married drops drastically.

clement: expired shuks.

jiahlit: shuk's market value very low.

joey: ha ha ha

thanks for the encouragement. (:

130909; 4.00pm.

AHHHHHHHHHH. everytime i think about the great immersion, my stomach does a 360degrees cartwheel and my fingers tingle and my nose twitches and i cant stop smiling to myself and i will talk faster than the rocket with no punctuations. gasp for breath. yes this is how excited i get. sorry i know melbourne is experiencing a drought but i really want to practice in my bathtub, in case i breathe in water and choke. must make sure this moment is video-perfect. :)

you're getting married!

:) congrats miss B.

i know you have been anticipating this day for some time. i am so happy for you! in fact i am jumping up & down, up & down when i saw yur message, and then screaming silent shrieks of 'praise God praise God'! hee :)

Is 61; the works of Jesus.

The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,

because the LORD has anointed me

to preach good news to the poor.

He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,

to proclaim freedom for the captives

and release from darkness for the prisoners,

to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor

and the day of vengeance of our God,

to comfort all who mourn,

and provide for those who grieve in Zion—

to bestow on them a crown of beauty

instead of ashes,

the oil of gladness

instead of mourning,

and a garment of praise

instead of a spirit of despair.

They will be called oaks of righteousness,

a planting of the LORD

for the display of his splendor.

They will rebuild the ancient ruins

and restore the places long devastated;

they will renew the ruined cities

that have been devastated for generations.

Aliens will shepherd your flocks;

foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.

And you will be called priests of the LORD,

you will be named ministers of our God.

You will feed on the wealth of nations,

and in their riches you will boast.

Instead of their shame

my people will receive a double portion,

and instead of disgrace

they will rejoice in their inheritance;

and so they will inherit a double portion in their land,

and everlasting joy will be theirs.

"For I, the LORD, love justice;

I hate robbery and iniquity.

In my faithfulness I will reward them

and make an everlasting covenant with them.

Their descendants will be known among the nations

and their offspring among the peoples.

All who see them will acknowledge

that they are a people the LORD has blessed."

I delight greatly in the LORD;

my soul rejoices in my God.

For he has clothed me with garments of salvation

and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness,

as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,

and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.

For as the soil makes the sprout come up

and a garden causes seeds to grow,

so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise

spring up before all nations.

i hope we remember what Jesus did,

and what we are called to do.

Let us not forget the diversity of the world,

the needs of those around us.

sweet saturday!

one of those days when i feel completely at peace irregardless of what's going on around me. sweet saturday started with dench bakery. seeking Him who knows me inside out. little nuggets of happiness in doing my laundry & organising my room. guitar playing and going on to finish up some work. strike off the items on my to-do-list.

must remember to keep this balance.

good old times.

i have a phobia of aging, because i... i have this syndrome, whereby..

if i grow old, i will die. haha.

good old times, good old times.

sad movie

warning: do not ever watch this if you have hyper active tear ducts. i did, and now i cant sleep. i am still crying 2 hours after the show ended. it's really a ... sad movie.

ps: the title of the movie is 'sad movie'

my instinctive desire

Rahab and all her relatives were safe. Both Cornelius & Lydia's households were baptised. The jailer and his whole family were filled with joy for they had all believed. I know grace does not run in the blood, and i cannot make the choice for my parents or my brother. But i can make a choice to be light & salt. i can make a choice to be their intercessor. i can make a choice to be willing and ready as God's vessel if He may. so i pray i wont waver. i want to see a 'Joshua 24:15 sign' at home (:

fruits of labor

for that part of the journey, we had walked side by side. united in spirit, we prayed the same prayers and we shared the same visions. we labor in joy admist the cups of coffees/the mini meetings near uni/upcell in the little library room at lygoncoc. we tried our best to know one another, to love one another, and to encourage one another. and about a year later, i am glad we still take time off to meet up.

friendship beyond ministry (:

God, while the clocks go tic-ka-toc-ka in countdown, i earnestly pray to you, that if it pleases you to do so, please take me, mould me, and use me. Empower me and strengthen me. Teach me to store up treasures in the heavens, to invest in things of eternal value. I want to serve you, and make a difference in Your name, and all glory to You.

P: shake shuks to study

P: then you would have shooked shuky to study

10minutes later...

M starts shaking my arm

my conclusion? there is an inner lameness in all of us :)

nightmared.

maybe cos' i emo-ed too much last night (about andrea leaving), or perhaps cos i was thinking too much about singapore.. either way, this morning was horrible. i could hear my alarm & the phone ringing in the distance, but i was trapped on a MRT train. it was filled with gunfights, violence, blood and racial tensions. what a horrible nightmare. i woke up in cold sweat, 2 hours late. yuck. i dont ever want such vivid nightmares again. i dont want nightmares that i can't control.

lars and the real girl; us in the real world.

today i was reminded of Lars and the real girl, a movie that i am very much fond of. it's about this socially awkward guy call Lars (ryan gosling), who lives in one of those small towns where everyone in the community knows one another. though he's very quiet & hence difficult to relate to, Lars is gentle, kind & helpful - and the town loves him. anyway, one day, he's got this strange mental health illness, whereby he becomes obessed with this life-size doll called bianca. bianca became his imaginary girlfriend. the movie develops as the community accepts not only lars & his strangeness, but also the doll (yes the doll) into their routine. as the layers are peeled away, lars also heals from the pains of his past.

something about the movie tugs at my heart. don't you think everyone is a 'lars' - in a way whereby we all have our little quirks and strangeness. if we shut the doors against anyone who is a little different, we shut the doors to ourselves. and the loss will be ours.

fallscreek09

i miss the thrill of zooming down the slopes, but i will miss the people & the trip more. 'each slope has a different memory attached to it', so someone says.

EC09

i thank God that we are so closely-knitted. i thank God that each of us treasure one another. i thank God that all of identify with the group simultaneously, and that we enjoy one another's company. i feel honoured to be part of this gang - such a privilege and a blessing. we like to meet occasionally, but consistently. we are enthusiatic in hanging out together and keeping in touch. we are open and honest (although some topics may require some grilling), treating one another pleasantly. though we are different, we agree on most things. we thrash-talk we joke we laugh nd we gobble. i like being exclusively part of this.

so if i can have it my way, i will make a world where there's no goodbyes. but because God (and not me) is the creator, i will have to learn to let go graciously. though it's difficult, i know that God will take us all to new frontiers for His kingdom. I will try my best to look forward to what God is going to do in our lives, and the lives of the people we will be meeting in the new seasons and phases to come. meanwhile, i hope we do not give up the habit of meeting one another & encouraging one another, spurring one another on. i know i will surely look back and wish myself back to the times that we shared, the journey that we took together. EC09, i say this sincerely: thankyou to each and every unique one of you - you all have a special place in my heart.

we must meet again at andrea or connie's wedding / jared's 5 x baby showers. oh, wait a minute. before that - let's make sure supper will be awesome 14aug, and that we sabo marc kaokao on his birthday (:

!

and because i FINALLY checked when my next clinical placement is... i discovered that i've got 3 more weeks of holiday! all the way until the 24th august!

irresponsible stinky me.

i think the person who annoys me the most is myself. i am so annoyed that i dont use my brain as much as i should be! i am irritated that i don't have the habit of noting down dates and remembering dates. the oh-i-m-so-looking-forward-to-skii-trip is happening this friday, which clashes with oh-i-am-so-excited-about-homecell :( i want to slap myself. oh God, get me out of this fix. i learnt my lesson. i will try my best to be more organised & responsible in the future.

3 bad habits i want to get rid of,
and this is glory to God:

1. to be disciplined in my schoolwork, to understand that i am called to be a student - that studying and being good steward of God's blessings to me (talent/intellect/opportunity to be able to study) is essential! (i.e. study >>>>>> play/sleep/eat/HIMYM/30rock/BBT)

2. to NOT oversleep! (this means not staying up late. this means being disciplined enough to keep to my self-imposed bedtimes. this means NOT snoozing my alarm clock or letting it ring forever till it wakes christine up while i am still sleeptalking).

3. to be more organised and not over-book myself. make sure i am not having and saying yes to too many things! be responsible towards the promises i am making daily!

and i am accountable to God, myself and everyone.
if i dont do this, pinch my nose or flick my ears.