nuggets of wisdom

me: i dunu, i get frustrated when i feel that we dont try hard enough

Dr L: the first thing is we must not think we can save ppl

Dr L: we can do our best to facilitate the healing process, ultimate its the creator who has made them and whether they recover or not, can we say its fully in our hands. what is hard enoguh though?

there alot fo factors when it comes to deciding to stop treatment.

for one, what is the patients best interest, prolonged suffering or peaceful death

not that we induce death, but by not treating we do not prolong suffering.and then there's resources as well, if u worked in India, its probable that alot more people would not be able to get 100% full treatment . not that no one cares, but its just not fesaible. i used to judge my bosses when they make decisions, but they've got way more experience and they probably have thought through the same things we are thinking about. their journey of dicovery could not have been easier than ours. but hey know this, its a priviledge that we have to make a difference in a persons life. the responsibilty can be overbearing but its rewarding too. focus on the positive.

i am subconciously looking for ways to cheer myself up.. ella enchanted and disney advertisements. and look what i chanced upon: the most beautiful castles of the world.

i really really want to go and check them out.

sometimes when i auscultate my patient's lungs,

i will catch the sound of their heart pumping

and then i will remember to ask: what are our hearts beating for?

our heart beats to pump blood through our body

the blood that gives us life.

oh sigh,

the blood of Jesus Christ.

missing

i seldom blog about materialistic wants, or do i?

but anyway, i really really want to buy a cross pendant

i am still sad that i dropped mine mysteriously in melbourne

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"Go Light Your World", so sings Chris Rice.

the hardest people to love

are those who are

emotionally disabled.

how did you do it Jesus?

tonight is a good night.

tonight is a good night.

i have been feeling busy for as long as i can remember, and tonight, i have finally found time to be alone, just doing nothing. i really love this moment - just lying in my bed, browsing through articles and columns. i like hearing people's opinions and views about things, and ruminate about it in my head. it's alike having a conversation with them over a cup of good skinny latte.

tonight, i just want to be His little girl. Listen to Him tell me some stories about Himself, just be still and hear what He has to say. Tell me stories, Father, and teach me to be someone whom You will be proud of. there is this warm fuzzy feeling that has filled my heart tonight, and it's because i know You are here in my life. my heart's desire is You Lord, and will you let it be You only?

and i want to be a child of God, a woman of God. one who is humbled by Him, and one who draws confidence from Him. i want to be persistent in the passions that God has laid upon my heart - to act justly, to love mercy and to be moved by compassion. i know these are big words for a small girl, but i trust my God, and i just need to be faithful with what little i have now.

ah i feel a tingling sense of happiness

right down to my toes.

nights as such,

makes my world bigger.

i want to take a step closer to who God wants me to be each day.

i really do.

so God, as much as it may be tough, i mean this as i pray:

Take me and mould me. Dont forsake me, and when the going gets tough, Father, will you remind me of your presence? Your grace be sufficient for me, Your grace makes me perfect.

oh what a messy turn out of events
that are leaving me feeeling so

silly.