reading fourloves captivates me, but also strains and squeezes every single brain cell of mine dry. ah, so let me try again, for the fourth time today.

the smell of lavender lingers from cellretreat. i think it goes very well with my purplejournal, although i thought yellow is also my colour.

the notsosecretnerdsquat is shockingly filled today. reality is still making its way slowly towards me. five more weeks! pressure is building up :(

"hickory. life built." life builds too.

i like the way J puts it, authentic prayer&fasting is one that launches a spiritual attack against ourselves, the very depths of our hearts where sins so easily entangle. every single day of the Christian life is a struggle, because we need to be ready to throw ourselves into war daily. but fear not, because victory is already ours.

"Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints." - eph 6

and now back to fourloves or perhaps... attempts to study.