woe is me

the devil is cunning & sly. he uses my seemingly small weaknesses - those that seem almost harmless. the lack of discipline in small mudane things, the lack of discipline in bringing glory to God for all the little things we do - they can fester, and they can rot me from the inside. the failure to correct them in time, the failure to throw off all these little things that hinder us. it's alike the grain of sand in the shoe that i didnt bother to throw out - blisters & limps & soon i won't be able to move an inch.

woe is me

but hallelujah! cos when my weakness & imperfections makes it difficult to pray & seek His face - God's mercy & grace actually becomes clearer, and more reachable! sometimes, i fooolishly think that i need to close that gap to meet God - that i have to do everything right and pleasing to His eyes. true, but only to a certain extent. because, no matter how hard i try, i will never ever be able to close that gap. and instead of giving up and recoiling away in disappointment, self-pity and guilt - wait for Him call onto Him & let Him close the gap instead.

and He did that nearly two thousand years ago.

if that's what it takes to be closer to You,
i will say: okay, bring it on.
because i am His,
i know for a certain the victory is already mine.