dis-satisfcatory

hey

i dont know why, but i was feeling really emo today.
i stood at the intersection of elizabeth & la trobe today,
feeling worn out and tired
wondering where i am gonna find the strength to struggle through the rest of the year
and the crowds move in such synchrony, directed by the traffic lights.
green = go. red = stop.
if only life is likedat - green, red, green, red. definite seasons of rest & work.
i feel like i am in a need for a rest.
a time where i can just do what i enjoy.
a time where i can just sit back chill read a book pray and listen to His songs learn the guitar play tennis shoot some hoops dribble the ball watch a NBA or soccer game lie on the grass and count the stars

i feel so tired.
melbourne feels so different this year.
the people i held so dear in my heart's kind of gone, or have moved on to a different phase of life.
the people i held so dear, i have to learn to let go.

God, i know it will eventually be alright
but.. just how long is it going to take before everything will be alright?

urgh.