i used to get very emo listening to emo songs such as rachel yamagata's i wish you love. nowadays, i get emo listening to worship songs. hurr. i think i am still struggling to come to terms with the heart ache of having to leave. i am still whining to God about it, silently hoping that i can stay, somehow. oh well, the opportunity came a few weeks ago, about the same time as the entire eviction deal. but yu know what God, as much as i feel sad about it, i know this is but for as long as it will last. i have decided, and i am resolved, to wait upon you Lord. i will be obedient to wherever yu call me to. i will go to where yu have called me. and yu will not send me to where your grace does not cover me. so i will not take the offer. nopes, i will not. as much as i am tempted, i will not. la dee da. last ltc retreat in a few hours time. excited & happy to witness His work in the lives of my fellow race partners. i will cheer you, you & you on, hoping only the best for you.