God has someone really wonderful for you, not someone perfect but you know someone who will really love you, and who will pray for you and want to present you perfect, and who will love God more than he loves you. someone whom you will be able to serve with and respect and admire.. and someone who will want to protect you and accomplish things for God's eternity with youu.. cos you will be bettertogether! - k


thankyouLord :) for now, teach me to offer to you an undivided heart, a heart that belongs to no other but You. let me be so lost in love with You Lord.


take me deeper, deeper in love with You
Jesus, hold me close in Your embrace
take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before
i just want to know you more and more
how i longed..
to be deeper in love.

reading fourloves captivates me, but also strains and squeezes every single brain cell of mine dry. ah, so let me try again, for the fourth time today.

the smell of lavender lingers from cellretreat. i think it goes very well with my purplejournal, although i thought yellow is also my colour.

the notsosecretnerdsquat is shockingly filled today. reality is still making its way slowly towards me. five more weeks! pressure is building up :(

"hickory. life built." life builds too.

i like the way J puts it, authentic prayer&fasting is one that launches a spiritual attack against ourselves, the very depths of our hearts where sins so easily entangle. every single day of the Christian life is a struggle, because we need to be ready to throw ourselves into war daily. but fear not, because victory is already ours.

"Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints." - eph 6

and now back to fourloves or perhaps... attempts to study.

it's a blessing, to be able to feel Your touch each time i sing out to you. How can i keep from singing? How can i keep from tearing? How can i keep from loving?

sms tht snm twh gb spbc. gwrnnd twh sh gthnnk tb t.

to where there are more of the blue skies
to where spring is clearly evident

330am and i realised that i've found a new interest... F L O W E R S.

it's strange how i didnt use to think much of them at all. - impractical and of little value.

but lately, i find such delight in skipping off to roadside florists so that i may admire and look at theprettyflowers. i often wonder what each flower symbolise, and what is God's specific whisper to us through each of His magnificent creation.. each so unique from the other - some are more elegant, while some are more vibrant. which passerby will eventually buy them off their vases? how are the flowers feeling right now, sitting in their vases? they've got such strong silent beauty in them. awaiting, awaiting.

what kind of flowers do you like? the elegant lilies that stand strong, tall and proud, or the simple humble dafffodils that bows their heads gently with a delightful smile? the bright and sunny geberas that goes along well with everything! or perhaps the fiercely passionate roses that is sometimes more than words?



oh beautiful Creator.
at Your word,
mountains will tremble and the earth will shake.
but never ever let my love for You be shakened please, let me remember that You are faithful till the end of times, faithful through the storms, faithful when we fall. faithful, even when we are unfaithful.

need to refocus and realign;
nothing should come between You and i.

consuming fire, fan into flames
a passion only for Your Name.

today?

woke up late and missed clinics, my stomach turned upside down and inside out :(

attempts to study totally failed and distracted by the state of the room + my OCDness + anticipation of a guest of honour staying over!

then there was bff who helped with photocopying (: extraextra choctop points! thankyou, you made my day!

cofffee at journal with eye-opening convo topics with L, K & J

dinner at desserthouse with a bunch of happy&beautiful people

ended with a bang - "wall-eeee!" quite a deep movie actually, brought ro-man-ti-ka-ti-sm to a whole new level! hahahs. a boot with a shoot in it too! :)

and now,
moviee with girlies! (:

thankyou God, for the wonderful day. i feel like a princess living in disneyland today.

i will give it up to God
commit us to Him

in faith that He will only give me what's best for me

(:

i see a broken me in the mirror,
mended and held together by grace.
until You come again, the cracks will remain.

He has set eternity in the hearts of men.
yet we do not understand completely.

more faith is needed.

thankyouLord
for friends.
thankyouLord
especially for thesefriends.
Lord, teach me to treasure them,
teach me to nuture them,
and teach me to love them.

listening to 'still' brings me back to that moment in time Lord,
it was that sundaymorning all over again. it was that sundaymorning when i least expected to find myself standing admist a churchservice held in a little school hall. i remember it so clearly now. i was looking, squinting, through the window at the sunlight - and i knew You were there. You were there. and i was overwhelmed. an unexplainable wave of emotion grip my heart - was it fear? was it love? was it joy? i dont know. it was a mixture, waves of emotion crashing at each other.
but yes i knew:
You were there for me. You are here for me. You will always be with me.

Hide me now, under Your wings.
Cover me, within Your mighty hands.
"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm."
"Father you are king over the flood,
I will be still and know you are God."
Find rest my soul, In Christ alone.
Know his power, In quietness and trust.

It's going to be all right by John Baillie

Not even the most learned philosopher or theologian knows what it is going to be like. But there is one thing which the simplest Christian knows - it is going to be all right. Somewhere, somewhen, somehow we who are worshipping God here will wake up to see Him as He is, and face to face. No doubt it will all be utterly diferent from anything we have ever imagined or thought about it. No doubt God Himself will be unimaginably different only because He will be unimaginably better. The only thing we do certainly know is that our highest hopes will be more than fulfilled, and our deepest longings more than gratified.

no fancybigwords, no emorhymingpoetry
nopes, none of all that.
and nothing really profound that i dont know as well.

but it spoke to me, like a boltoflightning in a sunnysummerday, or rather like a glimpseofrainbow after a crazyhailstorm.

God, let me hold onto those dreams and visions You've impressed upon my heart. Let me continute trusting and living in faith that they will be fufilled. Let me believe, without a single sense of doubt. no doubt, no fear. God i want to reach out to those whom you love and are always with, and yet they are lonely because they are seperated from you.

God, my heart breaks for the sick & the poor, and those children who do not understand what a parent's love is. Teach me to love them the way you love them, give me opportunities to reach out to them! Let me travel to those places that are torn apart by war, by unrest, by sickness and illness, and share your gospel that is so filled with love, hope and joy.

God, i struggle in this world of brokeness - be my lifebouy and keep me afloat while the assignments keep coming. Let me not conform to this world, let me not succumb to this plastic world, whereby people scavenge from place to place, looking for all the wrong puzzles to fill the holes in their heart.

'the joy of the Lord,
is (be) my strength.'

Cravings.

another day of barely making it - tiptoed hurried walking from A to B to C to D to B to A to D. and now when the day is over, it's such a bliss to be able to sit here in my bed, listening to chris rice in repeat mode - although it will be made perfect with a 0-caloried sweet cup of hot chocolate, perhaps accompanied by a kit kat or kinderB.. yum i can almost taste it :( and of cos, looking forward to a good shopping trip soon during the long-awaited-short-but-better-than-nothing holidays.

haha
i can never be satisfied, can i?
that's how we are, arent we?


When did you fall, by chris rice

You're all smiles & silly conversations
as if this sunny day came just for you.
You twist your hair, you smile and turn your eyes away,
c'mon, tell me what's right with you?
Now it dawns on me probably everyone's talking,
and there's something here i am supposed to realise.
Cos' you secret's out and the universe laughs at its joke on me.

I just caught it in your eyes,
it's a beautiful surprise:
When did you fall in love with me?

Was it out of the blue, cos i swear i never knew it.
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool and let's rewind
C'mon let's go back and replay all our scenes,
you can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time,
all the ones that slipped by me.
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart pounding -
well i guess it don't matter now that i realise.

Cos' baby i missed it then, but i can surely see you now,
right here before my eyes
You're my beautiful surprise.

Was it at the coffee shop,
or that morning at the bus stop,
when you nearly slipped and i caught your hand?
Or the time we built the snowman,
the day at the beach, sandy and warm?
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm?

I never saw the signs
and now we've got to make up for lost time.

Cos i'm gonna fall..
I'm gonna fall,
about to fall in love.

and everyong goes 'aww....'

haha - i think this song brings back a lot of ond memories. it's those times when we were a very closely knitted bunch of girls going on a road trip to grampians, fighting each other for the control of the ipod, so that we can play each other's favourite songs (:

now i m gonna make my milo, milo dinosaur!

if the fish dont complain of water, why do we complain of time passing by?
perhaps we are not made for time; perhaps, we are made for eternity.

i shall call today my firsttinystep day, because i feel like an infant taking my firsttinystep - so proud of the little achievement i have made! (hahahas, let me self-indulge lah!) reminds me of neil armstrong: 'one small step for a man, but a giant leap for mankind!'

on another note, i wonder if a broken piece of glass can ever be mended... brings to mind the theory of mosaic - broken pieces placed together to form a more beautiful picture than before (: especially when light shines through it. i sure hope that's how it will be too, though i dont see how if no one takes an initiative.

it's freezing sub-zero icecreaming cold tonight at melbourne, and i m all curled up in bed, snugged under warm warm blankets. just had some yummy instant beef + pasta thing from COLES.. man, i am all ready to chill, have my daily read, and doze off to bed

except that..

i have an assignment to do.
and i m procrastinating.

how imperfect can life be? (:
but i am still glad,
and i thank God
for this day you have made,
for Your providence of my being.